I'm looking for some miracles to happen...

Hello bloggers....
yerp... i admit that its been awhile i am away from this blog social network... lalala~not that i don't want to write.. its because that i don't have the ample time to sit and really concentrate on it you know.... why? okeyh peeps... you guys just lay back and relax for this utmost and terrifying story.... hehehe.. well i exaggerated.. not kind of terrifying as it seems.. a little maybe.... boleh ek gini nak wat gimik2 bagai.. sudah!... ahhahaa...

okeyh,
the story goes like this... i am currently having my semester break.. of course setiap sem aku akan cuti kan.... but lately... naw... not lately... presently i am so eager to work.. so eager to find money... i am way so in high maintenance lane peeps... really!.. got my bills to pay which include internet, phones and some rental fees... studying its like working.. only working i think much more whelming.. hahaha.....

next....
despite of these strange eagerness that happens like only once in thousand years of my life... i can't really have the chance to work though... you know... my job... i mean... tanggungjawab anak bongsu kepada ibunya yang sedang sakit is much vital.... EXTREMELY VITAL!!!! then.. have no choice left... if this is a game then of course i will use all of my lifelines... but hey... i'm snapping and living in my on reality life okeyh... i have to take care of my mother... yerp... i bet you have heard it loud and clear...

there are..
3 of us.. my eldest and my second sister , 4th sister sometimes... and me... take our routine and shift in keeping an eye on my mother... she's old peeps.. what more she could do rather than lifting up and down her hands.... and screaming like lontaran padu juara2 bersekutu karaoke... she's in pain for god sake... FYI.. my mom have diabetes, pneumonia, kidney failure and hey guess what...she is paralyzed... mashaAllah... xbleyh nak tolong apa dah seh!... but luckily.. we have a very generous and strong heart so together we walk with the pain..... cewah nak memuji diri ni baik kan.... we really work our arses for her.. and hoping that she will get better...

I don't even think about who i am right now....
yes! i am leaving all those berjimba thingy... not to say leaving lah.. put away for a while... hahha... that's the word... yerp... all i'm thinking right now.. is that... my mom will be cured... and i am begging god to have some mercy on her... she is fighting for her life... and believe me... i could see the pain that she carries in her eyes...

she's my mother...
i am glad i have such kind of mom!... what a major lost if i couldn't save her... the fact is.. none of us have the potential to wipe her pain... its all ALLAH SWT work... dia yang Maha berkuasa... hanya dia akan menentukan segalanya... hey peeps.. wanna know a secret? I LOVE MY MOTHER SO MUCH... i would do anything to see her slapping my face or kick me again.... i wanted to see her doing those kinds of things.... but as you all pretty much aware that to put the love in action is not easy as it seems... sometimes people thinks the other way around... yerp... only those who are really understand can differentiate how i love my mother so much...

I'm not stupid..
to leave my mother alone suffered.. anak derhaka dan durjana je buat keje mcm nie... i always pray that for some reason or any kind of reasons i am sure that there will be a miracle happening onto my mom... i couldn't ask for more.. because i don't quite have the strength to plead..

well... i think that's all about it... i dozing off now... will write again shortly... peeps.. do pray that my mother will be back on her feet again... as the old times she does... i am begging you people... thank u for supporting me all the way.. especially to my besties.... you know who you are...

buhbye~!

Last Lepak with Kawan2 for this SeMeStEr

huhuhu.... finally...i had finished my final examinations..... its a hell of a month i tell you... sumpah macam kene pancung jek aku raser.... a lot of thing happen... but i managed to get through with it with a strong heart... and i am going to finish strong.. cewah.. xmcm geli pulak kan.... lalalala~~~~

so, 8th November 2009.... will be considered as my last day in shah Alam.... and my last day
being with me friends too.... acap drove us to KJ to had our lunch... macam dah xde tempat makan dah kan kat Shah Alam... no... it's not like that to be exact.. he received a call from Puan Haslina our Instructional Training Lecturer.... she wanted to give back our assignments... before waiting her to arrive... we had our lunch at KFC in Giant KJ.... and i tell you it was my first time.. maklumlah saya ni xberkereta tunggu orang angkut g jalan2 je...


there are 6 of us in one saga car... luckily im the biggest so i have a little privilege to sit in front... hhahahaha.. gelak evil nie.. mmg xleyh blah.... in the car was me, acap (driver), Ali, Hafiz, Joe, and Thalha ... sampai ke KFC kitaorg melantak... adoyai...

here are some memories picture in the venue... huhuhu... dlm KFC pun jadiklah...

so there you go.. a happy friends... eating a very "healthy food" hahaha.. give us a break will ya.... so i am stopping and i will put a period ... oh yes i will..... so till me write again...... happy holidays freinds especially to UiTM students....

*cheers*

2 Papers In A Row... but I am so relieved...

lately i am flooded by stress betol... sumpah aku xtipu korang... it twirled me like hell... i have to put like extra brains on top of the existed... there two papers in a row that i have to take in this week only.. but gladly i managed to do all my papers quite in a fine way.... firstly i have my statistics examination which was on 2nd of November... luckily i found K Un.... and the rest of my friends willingly to study same2..... so we grouped ourselves and naiedl our brains and assess on the spot questions... i tell you buat statisitk nie mengempa bumikan otak kitaorg masa nie.. only god knows how we strive for an A for this paper... it took us 9 hours to be exact on our study... termasuk melantak kfc ramai2 jugaklah...

there... we had it all in one piece... really glad that we've made our first mission of the day... hahhaha.... im hoping for a good grades cuz my carry marks are extremely satisfying.... gila ko.. first time tau carry mark melampau2 cam tuh...

well that's all i wanted to share for today... and i will write again soon... yes soon enough when all the stress thingy over for good! haahhaah..
chow amigos...

preparing for final exam....

well today entry will be stress more on the preparation for final... cewah mcm nak handle talk show pulak kan.... hahahha.. well stress week will finally begin... i have not start any revision yet and also... hah! not even a single information stored in my preoccupy mind... lalalala~~~~

there are pros and cons in being student and carry life as a students.... its up to us to determine how's it going to be... herm... for better and foremost... study till kepala hotak nie dah xleyh nak receive input anymore...

so guys... i wanna wish you a very happy and pleasant study hah! as if you guys gonna have that.... and also.. good luck for your exams... remember luck wont be with you all the times.. but efforts are always within you.. so don't bother the luck... put some efforts guys!
chow... will write again soon....

love all of you.. hugs!!!

I am pissed by your management....

hello.. its been a while that i had visit my own blog.. well ive been busy lately.. you know does this and that... xleyh blah lah shiyal... i've been working my ass off for this coming finals and i want to have good grades... you know life are indeed challenging...

today... something happened.. and i am so pissed up till now... boleh x nama i terpampang besar kat fakulti because of not returning the speaker... okeyh its my fault of not returning it back on time.. and i am totally forgot about returning them back.. but you see aku pergi beli kot speaker tuh and hand it to them.. but the best part is.. my friend called me and said that she's already returned the speaker... but its a bit too late at that time... i am so like not knowing whats going to happen after that... so i asked her to get dressed and went to faculty together...

bila dah sampai pulak.. macam2 hal yang terjadik... abang zul one of the ICTs couldn't recall my friend's face at that time... its like 2 days ago not 2 years ago... come on... r u guys try to fool us? kitaorg ni mak bapak bagi duit... and to buy that speaker it cost me a lot... but what to do they have my matric card.. and without it.. i cant even seems to go for my final...

what i am not cool is that... dia pass kat dia, dia pass kat dia situation.. everybody is like... its not me its not me... what's the big deal... u count the units of the speakers that u have and hand it over the new speaker that i had just bought to me..... whats the fuss!!!!
arghh!!!!!! tensi aku ngan korg tau x!

i know its my fault who have terlepas pandang the spekaer before i returned home.. but like my friend said.... she's already return it back! and i do BELIEVE her.... setakat speaker murah siapa yang nak! i just need my speaker back cuz its worth for me... cuz its my own money! speaker korg tuh pakai duit kerajaan! there's a lot of differences...

count back the speakers and show me the reports!.... i mean it and the speaker is actualy valuable to me... i wont give things for free....

COOUNT! and get your ass working on!!!!!!!! jangan duduk goyang kaki makan gaji buta je.....!!! kerja nak lebat bebual nak hebat... hasil habuk pun xdapat!

imagining myself...

hello.... long time i had not write or post any entry... sorry for all that.. kerja I bertimbun-timbun okeyh.... look... i just wanted to share something that really make me really sad... does anyone agree that each of us can live this world without keeping money in touch... herm....

memang pecah otak kadang2 kalau pikir pasal duit nie... it will make ur head swirl... herm... there's no use pointing fingers at anybody... there's no one fault... *sigh* there some says you should cut your expenses but they were not in my shoe... they didn't feel... how it feels like having no money to pay the house rental... to pay this and that.. and so much more... i wonder... sampai bila hidup aku akan jadik mcm nie.. herm.... well... i have no answer to that...

herm.... well... i am so sad that i don't know what more to write... i promise... whenever i feel like writing.. i will write again soon....

just another entry

hello... its been quite a while that i didn't put any entry in my blog... not that i don't want to.. but there's a lot of errands i have to cover.. *cross fingers* I'm a Muslim... and all Muslims in the universe will celebrate our day of victory because we managed to fast for a month.. bagi sesiapa yang tak puasa or sajer gatal xnak puasa.. baik lu orang terjun dari puncak KLCC...

alrite, currently i am having my good time at home.. i didn't get the chance to berbuka puasa with my family.. so finally i did *eureka*heheh... herm... let say that here is the best part... my intentions that i want to celebrate hari raya with my family... but it turned out to be.. its better for me to go to back to shah alam.. and eat alone.. why so? i can't stand with the pressure that i'm going through

aren't suppose hari raya brings prosperous to the family and relatives... i believe in that... do you? memang aku percaya dengan kabahagiaan but it seems that it seemingly faded throughtout times.. it is somekind like a trend right now.. people only think about themselves ad so on... where is all the 1M thingy? tibe-tibe pulak ek? xmasuk akal betol... lalalal~~~

herm.. all im hoping for is that.. i wanna live my life.. like it was meant to be... i don't to change it to nothing else... yes i am afraid of changing and who knows the karma and who knows about the bad thing that could occurs to me...

herm.. well got to go.. cactch ya guys later.... baby dah nangis nie....